VIGNETTE ON A FINE OFFICIAL HOLIDAY
Listening to: ARISE by Wolfgang
truth need not be told
there’s so much truth in my life right now that’s more than I could handle. And there’s as much lie that’s squeezing in. I think I’m bursting. I think I need to take a rest from this adamant world and break all the coke bottles in the backyard. Too bad the pusakals have broken some of them on their way to eating the dogs’s leftovers. I think I might just have to sleep this off.
Listening to: SAYANG by Stonefree
Let's sing the Champola Waferstick jingle:
Oh yes, oh yes I can’t wait…
Haven’t I told practically everyone I’m excited for my freedommm?? Haven’t I? Haven’t I??? Well, not everyone. I haven’t told my boss yet. Haha. But the Circle of Trust (yeah I have my circle of friends at the office) knows. They know how devastated I am with each passing day. And I know how they are too with their own fucked up situations. They know how people treat me and misjudge me. I feel like a notorious high school student waiting to be kicked out by the principal. Still I’m not losing faith on the fact that God has a really big plan for me. I’m still waiting. But for now… 3 weeks is all… and THE WAIT… will finally be over.
Listening to: BAKA NAMAN by Stonefree
The Baby Shower
I was so happy to see my college friends again. Kris’s baby shower was so much fun. And the food was so good! We were like fine dining again although now we had lunch in the garden. It was scorching hot but hey, who’s complaining? We had so much fun catching up and talking about other people’s lives (chismis in short) and about our lives too of course that we didn’t mind the heat. We were awed by some of our batchmate’s achievements and whereabouts. As for the games… our team won in this “Starts with the letter” game. I also won in the “Guess Kris’s waistline” game. I didn’t do much there. I didn’t even think I’d win. I just imagined what my waistline would be if I were pregnant! Hehe Well that doesn’t mean I was thinking I was as reed thin as Kris. My estimate was surprisingly the exact measurement! Ang galing ko! Haha
Listening to: the ever slow LISTEN by Stonefree
A LETTER OF APOLOGY TO MY BLOG
July 25, 2005
Dear Blog,
I’m so sorry for abandoning you. It’s been months since I last updated you and I’d understand if you won’t publish this entry. If you’d only let me explain. I’d been busy. Soooo busy. But not as busy that I couldn’t release my tension and my angst, not busy that I couldn’t ramble on the things (including people) around me and rave about my daily pursuits of nirvana. I’m sorry if I didn’t choose you to be my absorbent cotton. Why? Because when I write to you I had to write it as if I’m writing my autobiography. I don’t want to fill you up with things that may seem senseless to you but mean something to me. I don’t want to write you one-liners that I understand now but will confuse me later on. And most of all, the reason why I don’t write you is because you don’t reply to give me advice. With these rants I chose to email my friends because they’re the only ones who understand the complexity that is me. You are my friend. But I’d rather spare you the trouble of soaking up my stories and grasping my complicated life for now. Don’t worry. That’s just for now.
Yours sincerely,
Myself
